2022 Birthday Letter To My Mom

Dear Mom, Happy 7th birthday and Mother’s Day heaven. I miss you so much. Hopefully, dad and you are having a party together. I hope you’re also enjoying Crystal in heaven with you too. I wish she could have hung on longer to meet my daughter, but I guess she wasn’t meant to just like…

Late Post: Mother’s Day Is Different This Year

Mother's Day is here again. It's a bitter sweet holiday for me. I'm a motherless mom. Every year, I get messed feelings of joy and sadness. I can't help it. My mind just doesn't know how I should feel. I want to be happy because I love being a mom to my beautiful daughter. Then,…

Christmas Eve After Quarantine Christmas Eve

Christmas Eve at my mother in law’s feels like it happened so long ago because of the pandemic. It was so nice to spend time with family on Christmas Eve. The simple things were taken for granted before the pandemic. I just expected to see family on Christmas Eve but when I couldn’t I was…

Another Thanksgiving Without My Parents

Thanksgiving is the time to share what you’re thankful for over the year. It’s hard to think about what I’m thankful for after seeing all the posts saying “I’m thankful for my parents” popping up. I have to thinks about what they taught me and how they made me into the woman I am today. …

Watching The Years Pass By Too Fast

Mom, the years are passing by way too fast. I don’t even know where the time is going anymore. It’s like I blink and another year passes by without you. The pain isn’t getting any better. Time just opens up a bigger hole in my heart instead of healing the broken pieces. Grief is a…

Happy 6th birthday To My mom in Heaven

Dear mom, Happy 6th birthday in heaven and Mother’s Day. I hope dad is making you breakfast in bed and brought you flowers to plant in your garden. I imagine you have a garden in heaven since you love planting flowers and growing vegetables. I bet it’s a beautiful garden like your soul. Ana and…

Mother’s Day Creeped Up This Year

Another year without my Mom on Mother’s Day is here. My heart feels heavy. All the mom posts are starting to pop up. My heart is aching for my mom. I wish I could make a post of pictures with her and my daughter, but I can’t. I have no pictures of my daughter and…

Thanksgiving During A Pandemic as a Parentless Mother

Thanksgiving is a holiday where you share what you’re thankful for with others. The typical things people say they’re thankful for are their Mom and Dad. Sometimes, other things are mentioned but it’s mainly Mom and Dad. They should be because parents are wonderful figures in our lives. Moms and Dads do so much for…

Dear Mom Six Years Ago You Left Me

Dear Mom, Time just keeps moving on without you. It’s starting to see as if another day now. I hate how it’s feeling like a typical day. My heart still feels heavy as always on this day. But it’s different because I’m trying to not let it drain me. I can’t let the numbness and…

Wake Me Up When October Ends During The Pandemic

As October starts, I can't help myself from thinking about what if my mom was alive. October has always been my favorite month but the last almost 6 years brought on a roller coaster of emotions. Luckily as my daughter gets older, the pain of my mom’s death anniversary disappears in the air. She loves…