My 12th Father’s Day Without You Letter

Dear Dad, Another Father’s Day without you in the books. I miss you dearly. It’s 12 Father’s Day without you. Time is flying by way too fast. I can’t believe you have been gone for so long. What’s new with me? Good news …. The pandemic is starting to loosen up. I got my vaccination …

My Mom’s Dog Passed Away In Her Sleep

My heart feels heavy today. My mom’s husky passed away in her sleep. Her name was Crystal. She was a crazy day who loved running with me and loved to talk. I will never forget my time with her. I didn’t see her as much as I would have liked to but I know she …

Happy 6th birthday To My mom in Heaven

Dear mom, Happy 6th birthday in heaven and Mother’s Day. I hope dad is making you breakfast in bed and brought you flowers to plant in your garden. I imagine you have a garden in heaven since you love planting flowers and growing vegetables. I bet it’s a beautiful garden like your soul. Ana and …

Mother’s Day Creeped Up This Year

Another year without my Mom on Mother’s Day is here. My heart feels heavy. All the mom posts are starting to pop up. My heart is aching for my mom. I wish I could make a post of pictures with her and my daughter, but I can’t. I have no pictures of my daughter and …

Happy 12th Birthday In Heaven To My Dad

Dear Dad, Happy 12th birthday in heaven. I hope everything is going well with you in heaven. I’m still missing you here on Earth. I wish I could celebrate with you. The world is still in a pandemic. Schools are half virtual and hybrid now. Your granddaughter is virtual because she has migraines and it …

The Last Two Days Hit My Daughter with Double Whammies

Rain and windy days are a nightmare for her. Headaches take over her days. She gets into a fog and really grumpy because of the pain. I know she doesn’t mean to get extremely upset with me, but it’s hard not to have her bad mood rub off on me. I’m just feeling her mood …

Reflecting On The Pandemic

I wrote this whole looking back on the pandemic blog entry in my personal blog on an app called, Zinnia, but I can’t finish the story part of it. Trying to remember what happened last year when my life turned upside down because of the pandemic is way more painful than I thought. I don’t …

Today Marks 100 Days of Virtual Kindergarten

We survived 100 Day of Virtual school! The journey started rocky then switched to the norm for my daughter. She had a hard time adjusting at first. Her anxiety made the adjustment difficult for herself and me. The days of school seemed as if I was stunk in a nightmare. I felt as if virtual …

As I Watched My Daughter Play In The Snow

As I watched my daughter play in the snow these last couple of days, I forgot reality for a little bit. Life felt normal as if the pandemic NEVER happened and everything stayed the same. I watched her slide down the little hill by our house in her pool tub at our house. My daughter …

Twelve Years Without My Dad

Today is the day. My dad’s 12th death anniversary is here. I’m feeling okay. I guess. The numbness is here but not as bad as it normally is on his death anniversary. I don’t know why. I feel fine. It’s only the morning. I know I have the whole day to get through still. Hopefully, …