Dear mom,
Happy 6th birthday in heaven and Mother’s Day. I hope dad is making you breakfast in bed and brought you flowers to plant in your garden. I imagine you have a garden in heaven since you love planting flowers and growing vegetables. I bet it’s a beautiful garden like your soul.
Ana and I are going to get a flower today in the honor of your birthday and Mother’s Day. She loves flowers just like you. She tells me how much she loves your birthday and Mother’s Day because it’s the only days I want to go to the flower shop. She loves flowers just like you. I explained to her it’s just hard for me since you loved flowers so much and flowers make me sneeze.
I miss you so much. I wish you could be celebrating the duo day with me. My heart hates when Mother’s Day falls on your birthday now. It’s like a double whammy stabbing my heart. The pain is so unreal. I feel like I’m in a fog all day.
We’re going out to dinner this year since quarantine is over, so the time out of the house will most definitely pause my emotions for a little bit. I’m going to enjoy being able to celebrate Mother’s Day in a normal way. We still have to wear a mask but my mental health should get out of the house then be locked inside.
I promise I will do my best to honor you today in anyway I can. I love you, mommy.
With love,
Pumpkin
Confessions of a Parentless Mother 