Another Year As a Parentless Parent

Time is flying way too fast for me. I can’t believe another year has part without my parents. The years are just flying by way too quick for my liking. I hate how I have to survive another year as a Parentless parent.

I wish they were here everyone to see me grow up in the woman I am too.

I also wish they could see me as a mom. I’m not the same people I used to be a mom. I hope they’re proud of me. Motherhood is so hard without them by my side helping me along the way. I can’t help but wonder if they would say my daughter is just like me as a kid. People ask me all the time and I don’t know the answer because… they’re gone.

They’re never coming back. I have to live another year without them.

I miss them so much. Not a day goes by that I can’t help myself from thinking “what if my parents were alive” or ask myself “would my life be different with both parents” after something bad happens or just when I need advice. I have to deal with things on my own again for another year. Yes, I have a support from a few people I turn to when I need advice but it’s nothing like my parents’ words of wisdom.

I’m going to stay strong. It’s the only thing I can do when I’m parentless. I can’t change the past even if I wish I could.

If I like it or not, I have to live another year without my parents.

I will survive.

I will be okay.

I will more towards another year.

I will cherish the memories for another year.

Happy New Year! Cheers to 2020!

I hope 2020 brings me happiness and a better year. I also hope it open another chapter to WAY BETTER decade than the last ones. Let’s be real …THEY SUCKED!