Dear Mom,
I miss you so much. I can’t believe it’s been 5 years since you left me. My heart is aching with pain today. Time is flying way too fast without you.
I hate how much you’re missing. I guess I’m just going to have to fill you in. My daughter started Preschool in September. She loves it. She’s making new friends and loves learning new things. I have a teacher conference next Wednesday. I can’t wait to see how she’s doing. She also had her first encounter with a mean kid without me. She came to me and I helped her just like you used to with me. Everything seems to be better now.
I started working in September too. It’s not the ideal job, but it’s helping us out. I’m looking for something closer and more flexible because they’re not working with me as they said. I know you wouldn’t be happy with a job like this, so I’m trying to get another job. I know I’m not happy. But don’t worry Mom! I know I will find something. I’m still hoping something will come my way. Please help me anyway you can from heaven. I want your advice on my job more than anything, but I can’t have it. I think I know what you would say, which is “I just want you to be happy and be there for Anastasia. If you can’t have both, you need a new job.” If I’m right, please sent me a sign today because I’m feeling lost and confused.
My hubby is doing well too. He’s working hard and continuing to be my rock since you’re gone. He’s such an amazing dad. I wish you could experience it. Fatherhood has definitely changed him. I’m loving this new stage of our life together. I hope you are enjoying watching it from heaven too.
Ugh. Mom, see you missed so much. I wish you didn’t have to watch from heaven. I wish we could experience all these changes together.
I love you! Tell dad I said hi!
With Love from Earth,
Your daughter
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